Showing posts with label addiction. Show all posts
Showing posts with label addiction. Show all posts

Sunday, 19 July 2015

Great article about addiction

Drug use is common, drug addiction is rare. About one adult in three will use an illegal drug in their lifetime and just under 3m people will do so this year in England and Wales alone. Most will suffer no long-term harm.
There are immediate risks from overdose and intoxication, and longer-term health risks associated with heavy or prolonged use; damage to lungs from smoking cannabis or the bladder from ketamine for example. However most people will either pass unscathed through a short period of experimentation or learn to accommodate their drug use into their lifestyle, adjusting patterns of use to their social and domestic circumstances, as they do with alcohol.
Compared to the 3m currently using illegal drugs there are around 300,000 heroin and/or crack addicts while around 30,000 were successfully treated for dependency on drugs in England in 2011-12, typically cannabis, or powder cocaine.
A powerful cultural narrative focusing on the power of illegal drugs to disrupt otherwise stable, happy lives dominates our media and political discourse, and shapes policy responses. Drug use is deemed to “spiral out of control”, destroying an individual’s ability to earn their living or care for their children, transforming honest productive citizens into welfare dependent, criminal “families from hell”.
This is a key component of the Broken Britaincritique of welfare and social policy advanced by the Centre for Social Justice and pursued in government by the CSJ’s founder Iain Duncan Smith in his role as secretary of state for work and pensions. However, the narrative has resonance far beyond the political arena and underpins most media coverage of drug addiction and the drug storylines of popular culture.
Most drug users are ..?
In reality the likelihood of individuals without pre-existing vulnerabilities succumbing to long-term addiction is slim. Heroin and crack addicts are not a random sub set of England’s 3m current drug users.
Addiction, unlike use, is heavily concentrated in our poorest communities – and within those communities it is the individuals who struggle most with life who will succumb. Compared to the rest of the population, heroin and crack addicts are: male, working-class, offenders, have poor educational records, little or no history of employment, experience of the care system, a vulnerability to mental illness and increasingly are over 40 with declining physical health.

The usual message. Imagens EvangelicasCC BY

Problem cannabis use is less concentrated among the poor, but is closely associated with indicators of social stress and a vulnerability to developing mental health conditions.
Most drug users are intelligent resourceful people with good life skills, supportive networks and loving families. These assets enable them to manage the risks associated with their drug use, avoiding the most dangerous drugs and managing their frequency and scale of use to reduce harm and maximise pleasure. Crucially they will have access to support from family and friends should they begin to develop problems, and a realistic prospect of a job, a house and a stake in society to focus and sustain their motivation to get back on track.
In contrast the most vulnerable individuals in our poorest communities lack life skills and have networks that entrench their problems rather than offering solutions. Their decision making will tend to prioritise immediate benefit rather than long-term consequences. The multiplicity of overlapping challenges they face gives them little incentive to avoid high risk behaviours.
Together these factors make it more likely that, instead of carefully calibrating their drug use to minimise risk, they will be prepared to use the most dangerous drugs in the most dangerous ways. And once addicted, motivation to recover and the likelihood of success is weakened by an absence of family support, poor prospects of employment, insecure housing and social isolation.
In short what determines whether or not drug use escalates into addiction, and the prognosis once it has, is less to do with the power of the drug and more to do with the social, personal and economic circumstances of the user.
Heads in the sand
Unfortunately the strong relationship between social distress and addiction is ignored by politicians and media commentators in favour of an assumption that addiction is a random risk driven by the power of the drug.
It does happen. But the atypical experience of the relatively small number of drug users from stable backgrounds who stumble into addiction and can legitimately attribute the chaos of their subsequent lives to this one event drowns out the experience of the overwhelming majority of addicts for whom social isolation, economic exclusion, criminality and fragile mental health preceded their drug use rather than being caused by it.
Viewing addiction through the distorting lens of the minority causes policy makers to misunderstand the flow of causality and pushes them towards interventions focused on changing individual drug-using behaviour and away from addressing the structural inequality in which the vulnerabilities to addiction can flourish.
Until we re-frame our understanding of drug addiction as more often the consequence of social evils than their root cause, then we are doomed to misdirect our energy and resources towards blaming the outcasts and the vulnerable for their plight rather than recasting our economic and social structures to give them access to the sources of resilience that protect the rest of us.

Wednesday, 18 March 2015

Iboga- A Magic Bullet?

Thoughts and random musings 

I get the feeling, that this blog and therefore, my own thoughts and behaviours are, to the average reader, quite controversial. 

When I first started writing this I was just the other side of my first Iboga experience. 
Maybe I was in the happy cloud older Iboga initiates talk of?!
Either way I was so enthused and amazed at how easy, yet incredibly powerful, that first 'flood' was!

The blog continues, charting my journey through addictions and life. Two more full floods followed with lots of half assed attempts inbetween. 
Looking back to that first trip I was so naive! 
I mean I'd read everything I could find on the subject, I knew the pharmacology and the plants physical and psychological effects. I'd spent nearly two years plucking up the courage to do it. 
From what I'd read online, I was expecting this incredible psychedelic, cathartic, energising, beautiful experience. One where I may get nauseous and would certainly get ataxia and wobble about the place. I did everything by the book, 18mg/kg HCL taken in two lots two hours apart. 
I'd been preparing for a long time, reducing my methadone, eating healthily, hydrating, cutting out prescribed meds and other recreational drugs. I had a sitter (who was probably more terrified than me!) I had written everything down in case of an emergency and the doctors needed info. I even signed a disclaimer of sorts, proof that I had knowingly and willingly taken Iboga. 


Well, I don't remember much, it was amazing though. I do remember bits of it, my partner turning into a purple and green skull with dreadlocks, the drums, the fire, singing and clapping. 
You pretty much lose all concept of time, I guess it was about 12 hours later I started to become lucid again. 
It is a wonderful feeling, realising you are 36 hours into an opiate detox with zero withdrawal symptoms and no urge to score. 
I got emotional, floods of years, happiness, regret, sorrow..
I called my mum and apologised for having worried her for so many years, how sorry I was for letting them all down. It was quite cathartic!

24 hours in and the main Iboga trip is wearing off, I can walk around a bit now, I sipped some juice. 
48 hours in and I keep pinching myself, 'am I really clean?' ... 'Im not sick, I should be in the midst of a cold turkey!' .. Na, nothing!..

72 hours...
Start to get a runny nose, guts liquify. I calm myself and convince myself this is just the last of the methadone coming out, they're very minor symptoms and that I should stop being a pussy. 
I call ibogaworld and literally beg them to send me some TA or HCL and I'd pay them back when I was better. 
(I was, and still am, incredibly grateful to Michele and the ibogaworld team for helping me out like that) 
They agreed but it would take ten days to get to me. 
I trudge on.. Managing to grab snippets of sleep here and there. 

Ok, by day five I'm sick as fuck. 
The Iboga has worn off and in shitting and puking and sneezing.. How long does this go on for?!
I can deal with a bit, but this is fucked. 
The Iboga on order is at least a week away still!

Day six and I can't cope any longer, it's too painful, I give in and score a bag. 
I feel like a piece of shit for not being 'strong enough' to make it. 
I justify this as a 'slip' and that ill make another attempt at an Iboga flood in a few months again (which I did do)

So, I learnt a lot from this, I learnt that despite all my hope and determination, methadone, no matter how you detox, is a bitch to get off. 
I started hearing more and more stories from people that struggled and 'failed' when trying to get off methadone and suboxone with Ibogaine. 
This made me feel a little less crap about myself anyway, it's apparently quite a common scenario. 

I see this more and more often, desperate addicts thinking that Iboga is their one and only hope of cleaning up. 
It does sound amazing, and don't get me wrong, it IS amazing. 
BUT, it really isn't the silver bullet/golden ticket/last chance that people think it is. 
Sure, some lucky people do get, exactly what they are looking for, when it all works out its amazing, these people completely turn their lives around. They also, often become very vocal advocates of Iboga, this is beautiful to see and they're doing a sterling job. 
The down side to these people though is that they often only see the good and challenge anybody's opinion that doesn't match their own. 
I've been told I was just weak and I could have got through that first flood if I'd tried harder. 
They will not accept that Iboga just doesn't work the same for everyone. 
I have a good friend that went to a provider for treatment, the HCL had zero affect and she spent three days shitting and puking up. Further doses made no difference at all and she eventually managed to crawl home to score. 
We don't know why but on occasion Iboga doesn't do what we want it to. It doesn't seem to be down to dosing either.
It's quite possibly genetic. 
Just like some people who were perfectly healthy and passed the ECG and blood tests before treatment, drop dead of a heart attack five days after flooding. 
No one knows why. All we can do is try to negate the risks and work as safely and responsibly as possible. 

I'd love to see some proper stats on this. I don't think there are many studies looking specifically at long term abstinence post Iboga. 
I'm pretty sure they would be quite a lot higher than traditional detox and rehab; which from memory stands at about 5%. Same as methadone treatment. 


I found this paper which documents a small sample. http://www.ibogaine.org/ibogaine_udi_bastiaans.pdf

I won't quote parts of it but have a read. Interesting stuff. 

The problem with doing these type of trials is mainly that the patients drop out and stop reporting, or they relapse or they pass away. 
It's a difficult thing to study. 

Monday, 24 June 2013

Complaining To Your Drugs Service & Injectable Script Progress




East London NHS's Stance On Injectable Opiate Prescribing

So, this post is about my experiences dealing with the SAU, or, 'Specialist Addiction Unit' at our local hospital, Homerton (Hackney East London), a run down of the various letters sent back and forth on behalf of my friend and the unit's addiction consultant psychiatrist,manager and the clinical director...

The issues I raised and the hospitals responses are quite generic and I would have thought other drug services around the UK operate similarly, if you were looking into other treatment options for yourself. 
I guess I've been acting as an advocate on her behalf, having someone fighting your corner, who also incidentally knows and understands how it all works, can work wonders for your self esteem and seems to have a positive effect on how well the professionals involved with your care behave ;)

This post may well piss people off, I know that a large percent of the general public probably view drug users and heroin addicts especially, as a problem for society, I'd go as far as to say sub-human, undeserving of love, compassion and tax payer money.
Sadly, the average citizen views heroin addicts as scumbags that would sell their own mother for a hit.
This isn't helped by the media, on the whole, if a news story concerns a heroin addict it will revolve around a mugging of an old lady for the £5 in her purse. The stereotypical dirty junkie.
This is also, probably the only time the public are told about heroin addicts, most don't know one or have any kind of contact with one. The message is clear, beware the scummy junkie, he'll mug you and won't think twice about it as he has no conscience or care for you.
Now, the reality...
There are an estimated 300,000 heroin addicts in the UK, that's just the ones that are registered for treatment and in receipt of maintenance scripts.
300,000 is a conservative estimate, for every addict in treatment there is a mother with kids too scared to access treatment for fear of social services getting involved, for every one in treatment there is one working in an office, holding down a good job, terrified of going to his/her GP for fear of being judged or losing their job. For every one in treatment there is another that can afford private healthcare, being prescribed MST from a private doctor or clinic..
My point is there is a huge amount of opiate addicts that slip under the radar, working, paying taxes, getting on with it! The 'functioning addict' I guess I'm one of them, I've always worked and supported myself and my drug use, I've always believed if one wants to use drugs then one must also support oneself and not expect others to pay for or support my habit.
Maybe people like me are in the minority, I don't know, I get the feeling there are lots of us though.
Now of course there are also your 'car crash, live to die' junkies.
These are the ones that commit crimes to pay for their drugs, most are in treatment, on scripts which for all it's negatives, gives you the option to use, being on methadone takes away the requirement to find money every day.
Sure, there are plenty that will steal, rob, lie, blag, do whatever it takes to get high.
In a society that criminalizes drug users and doesn't provide adequate prescribing of inject-able opiates, there are, unfortunately, those that will commit awful crimes.
I don't believe, in my heart, that the ones that mug old ladies actually want to do so, no-one gets off on stuff like that, it comes from a desperate place. I know they will have that on their conscience forever and so they should, I'm not condoning it in the slightest, I think it's disgusting, but I think simply punishing the person without any kind of constructive treatment is unhelpful and pointless.
It pisses me off that all addicts get bunched in with those that go that low.
Iv'e never in my life mugged anyone, Iv'e never stolen from my family, if anything I kept well away from my family when I was at my worst. I'm not trying to make out I'm mr goody two shoes but I am saying that despite the drug addiction, we still have a conscience, we are still human beings, we are your brother, sister, mother, father...
At my worst I spent a couple of years living on the streets in Brighton, I slept in car parks with a few other addicts. We would get up early and go begging or sell the big issue, I used to have to keep everything I owned in my sleeping bag, I'd make sure I had a hit made up ready from the night before for the morning.
Waking up sick in the freezing cold it's the only thing that keeps you going.
They were bad times but still I never mugged anyone, I begged for change and shoplifted occasionally. Only ever food though, I wasn't very good at shoplifting bigger goods and frankly couldn't be bothered.

So, my point is this.. Drug addicts are people too, people that have lost their way for whatever reason, usually some kind of abuse as kids. We're fellow human beings with feelings and dreams, don't judge us too harshly or quickly, this world needs more compassion and love not judgment and hatred.

So, onto the letter.. :P

So, a little background, if I maybe haven't covered it in previous posts...

She is a little younger than me, 30, with a long history of IV drug use, ten years plus. 
More recently (the last few years) she's been injecting 'speedballs' so crack cocaine along with the heroin. 
She has limited peripheral venous access having used the veins in her arms and legs for many years meaning the usual areas like arms and legs are thrombosed and the veins collapsed. 
She is therefore a femoral/groin injector. She's been injecting in her groin for about three years too. 

She has been in and out of treatment for around 15 years, various attempts at rehab (9-10 times?) methadone and subutex maintenance (small and large/optimised doses, the maximum being 130mg), DIY/home detox, 'community' detox (Home detox under the advice/support/comfort medications of GP), dihydrocodiene, morphine... Etc

In total in the entire length of using illicit drugs, the longest she ever managed to stay 'clean' was about a year, in 2004. 
She is currently prescribed 60mg oral methadone, on daily supervised pick up.
She still uses heroin and crack cocaine on top 3-4 times a week, an average 'hit' for her is three bags of heroin and one crack-or about 0.6 grams heroin plus 0.2 grams crack. She will usually inject this amount three or four times in a day, costing around £30 per shot. She struggles daily with drug cravings and withdrawal symptoms. She doesn't feel her current treatment of 60mg methadone 'works' or is even keeping her out of physical withdrawal. 
Traditional treatment has had little effect in the long term and she wants to try something new. 

Ok, so in my opinion my mate is a perfect damn candidate for IV opiates, ideally heroin (diamorphine), although IV methadone would also be an option. She feels that her addiction is as much to do with the physical act of injecting as it is to anything else. 
In her words she has, and always has had, a 'needle fetish' in other words, using IV drugs is almost a ritual, similar to rolling a joint or mixing a drink I guess. Some users become almost obsessive about how and where they prepare/cook and use. The act of tying off, finding a vein, pulling back and shooting becomes so ingrained, if you think about it from a CBT point of view, the reward is the hit. It's usually preceded by hours of hustling, shoplifting, sex work, whatever... Obtaining cash then obtaining the actual drug/s is all part of the addiction. This reward system is particularly strong when the user is in withdrawal, or has had to work extra hard to get the cash.... I can totally relate to and empathise with her, I was very similar..
I know for me at least, I was hooked on the whole process, running round scoring and finding a quiet corner or public toilet to shoot up in was all part of the attraction for me, maybe it's the knowing what you're doing is illegal/bad for you/dodgy.. Whatever, I got off on shooting a speedball in a public loo as much as the hit itself... Yeah.. Go figure mr psychologist ;)

Anyway.. As no other treatment has ever really worked, and she continues to inject illicit drugs on a near daily basis, with all the associated risks, I see injectables as a good option, it would be a method of harm reduction, she believes she can exchange her speedballs for a single, clean methadone or diamorphine shot. Cutting out the crack altogether. Pharmaceutical grade opiates are obviously also much less damaging to inject than adulterated street drugs.

After reviewing the NICE (National Institute Of Clinical Excellence) and NTA (National Treatment Agency) guidelines, she fits all the eligibility criteria so technically there is no reason she should be refused. 

I put all this, in writing, to her consultant, the unit manager and the clinical director ..Who, by the way, holds the requisite home office diamorphine/dipipanone license. 

Recently my friend has had a string of seemingly ever changing and frankly, bloody useless 'key-workers', I've been telling her to ask to see an actual doctor for months but apparently it's near impossible up there,.. at the 'SPECIALIST addiction unit' (Yeah, I'm annoyed, it was no better when I was there). They seem to specialise in doing as little work as possible, you might get asked to do the health assessment, otherwise it's just a case of handing out a blue script every two weeks and off you go. 

We talked about the lack of specialty care at the unit, along with the high staff turnover and the de facto issue of confidentiality and continuity of care. We asked for an actual doctor to assess her for possible injectable prescribing and told them that we felt the unit was no longer even providing a basic duty of care to its clients any more. (Managerial talk for 'oh dear, duty of care is rather important')

Strangely enough, this seemed to get quite the reaction!
She was telephoned days later and informed that as her complaint was rather serious it was being referred directly to the trusts' complaint department. 

She was asked to attend an appointment with a consultant from the neighbouring boroughs drug service to clarify the points she had raised. 
She duly went along, as did I. 

I have to say, we were pretty impressed with how the complaint was dealt with, the doctor asked her exactly what she was unhappy about and we discussed the possibility of injectables. 
He told us that he'd be carrying out a thorough investigation of our SAU and the staff involved, and that he'd look into the injectables issue. 

Fast forward two weeks...

She's called back again to see this consultant. 
He agreed with her issue around not being able to see a doctor when requested and said he'd be hopefully putting a system in place with a time limit when a request is made.. He assuaged her other minor issues and moved into the IV script..

Long story short..

Yes, she fits most of the eligibility criteria, 
yes on paper she would probably benefit from this intervention,
yes he agrees that studies from IV prescribing show very positive results, 
yes yes yes pretty much..!

Oh, wait though.. We can't do it because we don't have the facilities/staff/money/home office licence/lives in the wrong part of London/worries she will inject in her neck/groin which rules out treatment..

Blah blah..

My take on it?

He thinks it's a good idea but his hands are tied with beaurocratic   nonsense red tape and government guidelines. 
Apparently, starting someone on any IV script (methadone or diamorphine) is a big deal. Most people with IV scripts are long term, inherited patients. Initiating new scripts is rare as hens teeth. These 'grandfathered in' patients are pretty much regarded as long termers that the doctors would rather not have to deal with. 
The NTA guidelines state that the client must be observed for an initial period of time when initiating IV treatment, demonstrating safe and correct injection technique. (Not in the groin or neck, which is a whole other issue and personal gripe of mine, by the time a service user may be suitable for IV prescribing they usually have very limited venuous access anymore). 
To do this means the unit needs a specialist nurse and a room. 
See, to me that ain't really a big deal, but apparently it is. 
The client would need to attend the unit and be observed twice daily for at least three months. They would get one take home a week for the Sunday and would need to return the empty ampoule, proving they weren't diverting their script (Again, really? why on earth would they 'divert' the drug they want and have fought tooth and nail for?!) 
The prescribing doctor would require a home office licence, they would also want to be experienced and comfortable providing the script. (Funnily enough, there are barely any with the experience and confidence to do this) 
Apparently it's quite a big thing to take on and the vast majority of doctors would simply rather not get involved. 

I think, that really, it's just the fact that the government have made it so bloody difficult to provide this kind of treatment that no doctor wants to do it!

There was an outside chance of a referral to the maudsley hospital in south London. This is where the drug unit that did the RIOTT trials is based.  
IF, and I mean IF, she managed to get a referral and was accepted, she would be under the same rigorous and thorough regime. 
Having to travel halfway across London twice a day to inject in front of a nurse..and seriously..you'd need to be pretty bloody desperate to do that!

Currently we're waiting for the investigating consultants report. 
It should be completed any day now, I'll update you all as we know more. 

What came out of this all is the following;

-It is technically possible to get an IV opiate script
-There are only around 300 doctors in the UK with the necessary licence, these are not evenly distributed throughout the country. 
-You're very unlikely to get injectables prescribed, particularly if you live outside the main cities
(Brighton and London both have provisions although they're near impossible to access)
-Be prepared to face a lot of hostility and red tape, whether its right or wrong, a lot will come down to the individual doctors personal beliefs/ethics/experience/preferences/prejudices etc
-Even if you manage to find a doctor willing to work with you, there's no guarantee the PCT will fund it, in comparison to traditional oral alternatives, ampoules are very expensive 
-Our current Tory governments drug strategy is to go against all the evidence and previous experience and focus on abstinence based treatment. Ie: getting you off your methadone script as fast as possible (Yes, I'll be posting about this issue soon)
-Get some advocacy, it can really make a difference! Look up the methadone alliance, RELEASE and local users groups
-Do your homework, presenting a well researched, sensible and concise case will make a big difference


As I was saying before, the reputation and stigma attached to heroin/crack cocaine addicts is one I have to battle with on a near daily basis. Sadly this prejudice can often carry through to the very people that are meant to help us, doctors, nurses, drugs workers even. 

Don't just lay back and accept the status quo, being ambivalent and passive with regards to the treatment you receive is what's expected of you. 
Drug treatment strategies in the UK rarely change and are nearly always led by politicians that certainly don't have your best interests at heart. Drug treatment is a controversial area and MP's make decisions based on public opinion. Not on evidence based and patient centred choices. 

Advocate for yourself and others, join your local drug users group, if there isn't one, start one!

As I've said many times before, addiction is not a 'one size fits all' problem. 
There are many factors that contribute to a person becoming addicted to drugs and alcohol.
Addiction crosses all social boundaries and classes. 

Ill leave you with this;

The consultant we saw told us he was very impressed we had written a letter of complaint. He told us it was a real novelty, to meet someone who wanted to bring attention to issues with their treatment. 
He told us that most complaints come in the form of kicking off and shouting in the waiting room, the client storming off when he'd got what he wanted. End of story..
To get some real feedback and the chance to make the patient experience better was something he was more than happy to do! 

So... Get writing :)

Love

Sid 

Monday, 4 March 2013

Getting Injectables Prescribed In The Uk

I'm currently in the process of helping a good friend who's having trouble with our local drug service. 

When I was using I know I could have done with someone on my side, advocating for me. So now I'm in a better position myself i thought I'd try and help.

So this is the situation, she is a long term user, around 20 years. IV heroin for most of it but speedballs, heroin and crack combined, for the last five years. Which I know from experience is a total bitch to kick. 
When I first started using, I used to hang with a guy that did both. He used to infuriate me because after hustling money, we'd go to score the heroin, I'd be chomping at the bit to use it! But this guy wouldn't do heroin without crack! Seriously, we'd have to wait around for hours sometimes for his crack dealer. He just point blank refused to do just the heroin and I just didn't get it! .... Fast forward 15 years and now I get it! I fell into the speedball trap too towards the end. It really is difficult to do just the heroin. It's just not the same. 
It's difficult to explain if you haven't experienced it, it's like toast without butter, or tea without sugar. Haha

It obviously also makes it that much harder to stop, you have a double whammy addiction!
I read somewhere about the physiological side of it. IV heroin or IV crack, alone, obviously induce a huge dopamine release, which gives the high. 
Put the two together however and the dopamine release is around 400% more!
It's an awful addiction to have, at least with just heroin, psychologically, you're on a pretty even keel. Yeah you have ups and downs, when you're sick and skint you feel crap but trust me, once you've been on speedballs you appreciate the difference. The crash after a day of using is just awful. It used to take me a week to recover from a speedball binge. Not even wanting to talk to anyone else, physically feeling awful but the psychological side of it is like nothing else. Well, maybe like an amphetamine come down,.. a bit..
When it's time to stop, you're not only battling cravings and physical symptoms of normal opiate withdrawal, you get the extra fun of cocaine cravings and withdrawal! Cocaine cravings are pretty intense on their own!
Like I said, double whammy! .... Why did you think it was a good idea to try a speedball again? ;)

So anyway, my mate is an old school addict. Been at it a long time, been in and out of rehabs and programmes. Spent the majority of her addiction on methadone, 180mg at the highest. In drug service terms anything over 60mg is classed as an 'optimised' dose. 60mg is believed to be the minimum to achieve a 'therapeutic effect', the 'optimised dose'. 
This has changed over the years, it wasn't too long ago that 60mg was considered a high dose!
Incredibly, in the United States, doses of up to 500mg daily aren't unheard of.
The most I have ever heard anyone being in here was 250mg. 

She tried subutex but didn't get on with it. Some people just don't get on with buprenorphine. It's a very different drug to methadone and heroin, pharmaceutically and subjectively. It's a semi-synthetic, partial opiate agonist/antagonist. 
It can feel quite 'chemically' to some people.  If you're used to full agonist opiates like heroin or methadone, the crossover to subs can be difficult. 

Right now she's frustrated with her treatment, she feels as though they have given up on her almost. A 'lost cause' .. It's very sad actually, this girl is an amazing person, really creative and kind. I've known her a long time, she's a little like me I guess, in that she's not really what you'd class as a 'junkie'. Having worked and supported herself, her kids and her habit most of her life. 
Like me, getting caught up in opiates using them almost like a sticking plaster, to deal with emotional pain. Opiates are great at numbing those painful memories some of us damaged people have. They were almost a natural progression for me, I'd spent most of my teens struggling with feelings and emotions that I just didn't have the tools to deal with. 

She's currently under the care of our local specialist addiction unit, at the hospital. This is where they send the people that don't respond well to traditional treatment, maintenance scripts which can be given by a key-worker at a community drugs service. 
They are, by definition, there to provide a specialist service, in my eyes you would think that that involves using a wider range of medications and psycho-social interventions like psychotherapy and family counselling. 

About a year ago, while I was still there actually, the budget was slashed.
Lots of NHS services were cut, obviously addiction services are an easy and obvious target and therefore one of the first to feel the pinch. 
The consultant that ran the unit for years was fantastic, I've written about her before I think. A really amazing, caring doctor. 
Part of the cuts included her having to incorporate the alcohol unit into the drugs unit. Splitting her time overseeing both units and pulling back on direct patient contact.  She wasn't prepared to make this compromise and ended up resigning, it was a travesty actually and makes me mad to this day. Things at the SAU really went downhill after she left. Every week I'd hear clients moaning in the waiting room, keyworkers would change from week to week, it became impossible to see a doctor and you could just tell that most of the staff couldn't really care anymore, they'd be out the door by 4.30 whereas in the past stayed til gone five.

Rather than clients seeing doctors, nowadays everyone sees a keyworker, no matter what their needs or level of priority. The keyworker is like the liaison between the client and 'the team'
The team consists of registrars, keyworkers, one psychologist (to cover every client), the consultants, the manager, nurse and various other workers. They meet weekly to discuss the clients. 

This may seem a sensible idea, and certainly streamlines things, but at what cost?
I know for me, when I was still there, I just felt a total lack of care or even interest. I had a different keyworker every appointment at one stage. They were obviously temporary agency staff, with no specialist training in the drugs field. One lady In particular was so obviously uninterested in me I played around a little and told her I was injecting benzos and that I was self harming again. To see her reaction. There was none.. She just wrote it down and moved on. I don't know what I was expecting really, maybe 'are you ok?' I guess..

Back to my mate.. She asked me to look up the government guidelines for injectable opiate prescribing. 
I have an interest in this too because I was looking into it for myself before I stopped using. 
It's a bit of a grey area, it's not a common practice, but technically it's possible to get an injectable script. The studies looking at injectable vs oral prescribing show positive outcomes, there is plenty of evidence from Europe, we all know about Zurich's incredible results with 'needle park'. They had a huge and very visible heroin problem some years ago, addicts would (infamously) stand out in the open, injecting eachother. 
They rather bravely, implemented an injectable opiates policy. Set up a clinic where addicts could go and get a legal, safe and regular supply of heroin. There were conditions attached of course, the addicts had to attend the clinic twice daily and inject in front of staff where they could be monitored to ensure they were injecting safely and to stop overdoses. Incredibly they cut their new addict numbers by around 80%. By taking the 'glamour' out of IV drugs, they essentially stopped people wanting to start using. They have similar places in Canada although these are just safe spaces to inject, with staff on hand dealing with OD's and to offer safer injecting advice. They don't prescribe here just supervise. Many many lives have been saved and local HIV and Hep C rates have dropped. 
Portugal have recently decriminalised the use of drugs, where before an addict would be punished through the courts and prison system, they started instead to offer them a place in rehab, or opiate replacement therapy. Again, they have proven the concept and cut drug related crime dramatically.
The glaringly obvious point here is that people will use drugs wether they are illegal or not, criminalising and punishing people for using DOESN'T WORK. Putting programmes and systems in place to help drug users is the only way to make a real difference. 

Although I don't personally need medical treatment anymore, it's not long ago that I did, and I feel strongly about the UK's and the rest of the western world's outdated and useless drug policies. The 'war on drugs' hasn't, and never will, work. 
I'm hopeful that things will change though, there is a small but rapidly emerging worldwide movement towards the decriminalisation of drugs. 

UK drug policy does allow for the off label prescription of injectable opiates for addiction. 
A home office licence is required to prescribe diamorphine though and there are only around 90 doctors that hold one. 
No licence is required to prescribe methadone amps though.
I feel my mate is a good candidate for injectable prescribing, after reading the NTA and NICE guidelines she fits the criteria. The only other things in the way are practical things like being able to demonstrate good injection technique and having good venous access. It's also necessary to monitor people closely who start this treatment. Especially during induction. It may not be logistically possible to prescribe at your local unit and this will have an impact on their decisions to provide injectables. 
Essentially though, the final decison rests with the prescribing doctor.  it literally is as simple as the personal prejudice, preference, experience and maybe even the whim, of the consultant. 
If you can demonstrate that you fulfil the criteria and you can show a good case for a realistic reduction in harm and improvement in illicit drug use, then there is really nothing stopping you pursuing it. 

Cost is another major factor, we all know oral methadone is cheap as chips. As low as 20p per dose. 
Currently there are around 5000 addicts receiving injectable methadone and around 450 diamorphine. Most of these people have been on it long term and were often inherited patients to the new doctor. Injectable scripts account for 80% of the total cost for methadone prescriptions.

Maybe some of you will think that I'm wrong. And that addicts shouldn't be given injectables. Maybe you're right. I just feel we should be given the option, if it works then all the better. 
As I keep saying, addiction is a complex, difficult issue, it is not a 'one size fits all' problem and treatment should be tailored to the client. Utilising all the treatment options, including medications. 

Trial results show a large amount of people either coming off opiates altogether or achieving a significant reduction of illicit drug use. That can't be a bad thing no?
If people aren't needing to commit crimes to get their drugs anymore doesn't society in general benefit?

Monday, 7 January 2013

I've Been Offered A Free Trip To Thailand!



Cool huh!?

There is a catch though...

I'd be going to Thamrabok monastery.
It's the one where you purge and sauna for a couple of weeks to detox.

It's a drug detox, apparently it's in the middle of nowhere and you pretty much spend the trip drinking purgative tea and throwing your guts up.

Sound appealing?

I might go actually, although I'm not technically dependant on anything, I do still have days that I really struggle with cravings.
I don't know too much about the place, I've heard a few stories though!

The people that come through the other side swear by it so it must do something right?!

Maybe going to somewhere like this will be the kick up the ass I need to keep clean and sober, looking to the future instead of dwelling on the past and shrugging off this depression and lethargy I've had for months..

There's a charity called 'East-West Detox' based here in the UK. Run by a chap called Mike that I met a couple of months ago when I was speaking at a confrence about ibogaine, recovery and addiction.
East-West cover the travel expenses to get addicts over there, quite impressive really!

-Edit- I discovered that I made a mistake, they apparently don't pay for the flights and food. You have to pay for yourself! They just facilitate the process. Sorry!

Thamrabok is another 'extreme' detox, honestly, after ibogaine I don't think I'd be shocked or anxious about doing it.
Ibogaine visions along with the total inability to control your legs and arms are pretty bloody intense. Ibogaine induced vomiting anyway, been there done that. At least with the thamrabok method your not tripping your nuts off at the same time!

It seems too good an opportunity to turn down really, I've not been out the country since my 21st birthday. I've always wanted to travel India, Thailand and Nepal.
Seeing it as a holiday probably is very far from the truth though.
I did skim read the website and your pretty much whisked from the airport to the monastery and whisked back at the end.
No 'stopping at go to collect £50'
Can you imagine how many clients they must have 'lost' over the years!?
Haha, Thailand, the land of cheap china white heroin and OTC ketamine.

I've been told to let them know if I want to go.
I also want to start my music degree this year so it would probably be best to squeeze thamrabok in first!